haaaaaayyyy kailan kaya sila magiging akin. ang cute noh!!!

finally ill get to post this tag from 24.

What are the things you enjoy, even when no one around
you wants to go out and play?
--> i read a book. im not really outgoing, although i couldn't really classify myself as an introvert. there are times when i just really prefer to be alone at home. that's actually something that i would really love as of these last few days. anyway, aside from that i also like to write on my journals. if i dont feel like writing, i browse thru my past entries or i look at old pictures. it's amazing how time flies.

What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
Make a list, post it in your journal.
-->my dogs. playing with them somehow takes my mind off some things thats been bugging me. although sometimes they could really be so hyper that they add up to my anxiety. hehe

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soliluqoy: how many friends have you lost girl? think you could handle another one?

Umuwi ka na baby
Hindi na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi'y hinahanap-hanap kita.

someday someone will sing that to someone. but by that time, that someone will no longer be there to hear that. that someone will be somewhere else by that time, not because she has finally found a reason to leave but because she lost all reasons to stay.

i was browsing thru my email and i found this email from one of my high school friends. it was something that hit home when i read it. i feel exactly the same way as she does. although not so much about the dating part. but mostly i feel the same. im feeling kinda empty for days now, even months actually. dont get me wrong i am happy about me being back with my long time bf but somehow, deep inside there's this emptiness that needs to be filled. again, something that i do not have a name for.

not much in the mood to write. my braincells aren't even working. so just read thru the email she sent me. chances are a lot of you feel the same way one way or another.

I am sad. For some weeks now. I don't know why.
Perhaps I am just tired. Or I have a longing to
connect with some other people. I don't go out much.
I guess I make myself sad for being an introvert. I am
a homebody. Hmm...not really. I am a loner. I prefer
to be by myself. But too much of this makes me sad.
I like long, silent walks, even under the rain. (I did
this two nights ago. Good I didn't get sick.) I am
tired of all the quest. Or maybe I haven't even
started. I feel it's a waste of time sitting thru
dinner, making small talk, of what you like don't
like, your family, background, work, etc., but there's
just nothing. It is pointless when the person sitting
across me doesn't even make a dent on my brain. It's
all hot air, to be forgotten the next day.

I should go out more. But where to find fellow
thinkers. I am not so much of a philosopher, but I
like introspection. I am not loud and colorful like
most people. I am boring.

I used to have some people with whom I can spend
silence and be completely happy. But lately, or maybe
for sometime now things have changed. I don't know
what I want. Sometimes I want a different life for
myself, some place else. Sometimes I feel like there
isn't another place I'd like to be. I am a bin of
confusion, of emotions, but of emptiness. The world
is on full speed while I am trapped in myself,
solitary and problematic, about something, about
nothing.

This is madness. A cry for identification. A cry for
others who feel the same way I am. But where are
they? Oh how difficult it is for loners to find each other.

"the heart of a woman is an ocean of secrets... an ocean of secrets."

---Rose (Titanic)

absolutely funny. not recommended for english majors.

i went to market market over the weekend. bought something at a chinese store. after paying i was handed a facial wash for a free item. wow. i gave it a quick look before putting it inside my back pack. afterwards, my mom and i went inside to check out the mall.

when i got home, i quickly checked out my purchases. after checking the items we bought in the grocery, i came across the facial wash again. i checked the back portion to see the instructions. and this is what's written on the box:

Efficacy: This product by use of natural plant elite, mildly rase acne, poise greases secrete, purge of surplus grease, reduce black gave, esperiment prove, with enirety rase acne and horn, beauty white your face, amend crass skin, acert acne and scar.

USE: Days for sub-two, first shall face wetness and weild the product gently knead, then with cleanly water washing.

Notice: avoid into eyeball, if immodesty, shortly washing for cleanly water.

i don't think i would like to use it, as the manufacturer of that product couldnt even afford someone to decently translate the words in english, what more pay for a decent research team. nangtokwa

i miss taking quizzes... so here's a bunch. *winks*


You are the Goddess of the Seas, or the Ocean
Goddess, or the Goddess of the Lake, or even
the River Goddess. Lets just say the Goddess of
all things Water!! Your emotions change just
like the tides and, yes admit it, you can be a
little bit more emotional then any of the other
goddess's. But, even though you are
emotional, you are one of the stronget
goddess's!!! Your power jewel is an
Aquamarine. Your colors are any type of blue
and sometimes green. Your metal is Uranium and your animal (me:well in this
case 'half-animal') form you take is a mermaid


What kind of goddess are you(for gurls *obviously* with awsome pics and detailed results!!)
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i sure did like that one.


.:Venus:.

"You thrive on balance in all aspects of your
life. You have a great deal of passion and when
it comes to love, you like to play games. You
have a tendency to search for something better,
a search which always seems to come up short.
You have difficulty finding satisfaction in
life, but you have a great ability to get along
with almost anyone."


. : : Which Astrological Planet are You? : : . [10 Gorgeous Pics!]
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that was soooo true!!!

You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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uhmmmm.... not quite sure about that one but i like ninja's hehe.


You have DIVINE love, and it shows in every fiber
of you. If you havent yet graced someone with
your love, dont rush. Not everyone deserves
someone as wonderful as you are because they
dont understand your rarity, but when you find
someone who does you will lead a very full and
wonderful life.


What Type of Love Best Represents You?? (WONDERFUL anime pics!)
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hope he reads this. hehe

august one.

we watched a movie last night - stealth. last full show started @ 11:25pm (july 31, 2005) i tugged @ his sleeve when my watched read 12mn. don't quite know how to say it so when he looked at me, i whispered:"august one na.". we looked at each other and he smiled. im contented @ d fact that he smiled. at least it means that he still thinks of that day as special.

then when we went out of the movie house, we both decided to have a cigarette break near figaro. i was busy telling him a story, when all of a sudden, he shut me up by kissing me right then and there. "happy anniversary baby!" he said and smiled. i was caught off guard. i guess i didn't quite expect it after all. i was silent for a couple of seconds. then i found my voice again. "happy anniversary!"

whew! crazy love! yeah crazy five years!