ive been staring at the monitor for so many minutes, lost in my own thoughts. i have so much that i wanted to write about right now, ironically, words are just way too elusive.

for those of you who are asking how i am after that storm in my life, im okay, im here still alive. surprisingly, im really okay which i still sometimes find weird. i guess there really comes a point in your life when you will just be totally tired of making things work that no matter how important it is, you just have to stop and say - "i guess this is as far as i can go.". im not putting a period on it, as i really dont know what tomorrow may bring, likewise, i do not believe in seeking the help for people claiming that they can see what the future holds by reading a few cards and interpreting the lines in ones hands. but i've come to accept that if its not for me, it will never be in the same way that if its for me, it will end up with me no matter what. i knew after it happened that i grew up. i did. surprisingly. sorry but im still really baffled at how i handled the whole thing. right now, i am trying to live each day one day at a time. im trying to love myself. in loving him before, i have forgotten that i also need to love myself. i owe it to myself.

have a great week ahead and God bless you bloggers! =)

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

---W.H. Auden

this love has taken its toll on me, he said goodbye too many times before...

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this blogger is in need of a lot of sleep, currently suffering from hypotension (90/60 blood pressure)

enjoy ur weekend guys will visit ur blogs soon.

this girl needs more than a than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me...

A to Z about me
Message: 1. A - Age
~ twenty four

2. B - best asset
~ eyes daw parang mata daw kasi ng pusa sobrang bilog

3. C - Career
~ team leader (translation: call center slave!)

4. D - Drink or smoke
~ drink

5. E - Easiest person/s to talk to
~ my wave one agents and cyber agents (ronch and faye), my boss - mel paguntalan

6. F - Food that you could never eat
~ hmmmm... sa takaw ko wala ata ko maisip

7. G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms -
~ pareho lang

8. H - Hobbies
~ singing, blogging, definitely reading

9. I - In-love?
~ shempre naman!

10. J - Junk food you like
~ pringles tapos may tostitos na salsa! ayus!

11. K - Kids
~ three to four....

12. L - Longest drive
~ going to baguio

13. M-My favorite sport
~ nah ako ang taong walang kasports sports sa dugo

14. N- Number of siblings
~ one

15. O - One wish you have?
~ if i tell you, then ill have to kill you!

16. P - Phobias
~ heights (maliit kasi ko! hehe corny!)

17. Q - Favourite Quote
~ "The color of memory is always blue. For there is always sadness in remembering. Sadness in reminiscing memories that once depressed the heart knowing that it may never be unremembered. Sadness just the same in remembering memories that once overjoyed the soul, knowing that it can only be remembered." --Adrian Montemayor

18. R - Reason to smile right now
~ my good relationship with my God, my family and my Baby

19. S - Song you sang last
~ "sunlight" by kevin letau

20. T - time you woke up
~ 4:30am - hehe being in the morning shift is priceless

21. U - Unknown fact about you -
~ i snore when im too tired... hehe kahiya

22. V - Vegetable/fruit you love -
~ ampalaya and for fruit - pomelo

23. W - Worst habit
~ procrastination

24. X - X-rays you've had
~ back and chest

25. Y - Yummy food/s
~ kare-kare, spaghetti, leche flan -- hehe halata bang mahilig ako sa fiesta

26. Z - Zodiac sign
~ libra...