off for 4 days... eat, sleep, eat some more, sleep some more - that's what people most commonly refer to as "buhay baboy" (pig's lifestyle). its nice to bum around again after working for 6mos straight without having any real vacation. i still have to train another class tomorrow and it still creeps me out when i think about it. pardon the lack of coherence in this post. anyhow, i finished a couple of books and im thinking of what book i should buy next?


it's terribly hot! i need a getaway. im also thinking of getting a new pup or having dental braces. such a dilemma! im sorry i cant post anything sensible at the moment. im just here at the internet cafe trying to while away the time and have change for my money. then ill be off to the bank and home to my mom's house. spent the last 2 days with my baby at his apartment. some other time.

-bits of happiness-


today is a great day despite the fact that i don't feel good enough to go to work. i woke up with a cold, back pains and slight headache. Nonetheless God has a way of steering things around. ain't anything extraordinary, but He filled my day with little things that makes me smile. my sweet and cuddly, not to mention fat dog, Pebbles woke me up with wet, morning kisses. hehe yeah! once she sees me open my eyes she would rush over to me and lick my face until i totally wake up and go out of the room. i got a call from my baby before he went to dreamland, he said he already misses me and just wished me goodluck for my training class today. when i went out of the house, a tricycle went inside our street to offer me a ride. i actually have to walk about 5mins to go out of our street and then wait for a tricycle. when im already at edsa as i was at the overpass in guadalupe, i prayed God to provide me with an aircon bus with the route skyway alabang. true enough as soon as i make it to the bus stop there is my bus waiting for me. God really made me smile with those gestures, shows just how much He cares and how much he listens to our prayers.



-team lead/trainer-


I've been training a class for the past 2 weeks, and i have yet to train another class next week for the cyber response. I don't wanna complain about doing it as it gives me advantage and exposure to training people. i guess God must have heard my complaining about being a team lead and wanting to go to tqid, that He gave me a chance to try out the training department. well yeah i call myself a pseudo trainer for now. i realized its also hard to be a trainer as you always have to be on your toes to answer weird questions and isolated cases raised by the agents. nonetheless, i'd say it's a fairly good experience.



-time with myself-


i miss being alone. probably becoz during my rest days, i'm always with my baby. im planning to have some quality time with myself by next month. i asked for a week long vacation leave. im still trying to figure out where i'm going but it definitely has to be a beach setting. im kinda excited, im planning to catch up on my reading, start doing my scrapbook and really commune with myself. i want to be able to think things over, where i am now as opposed to where i want to be. what are my plans and start to seriously think about the future, i mean im not getting any younger. i need to start taking things really serious, stop splurging and start saving. most of all i want to be alone with God, i know some of you might find that mushy. but really i cannot imagine how some people could go on without a personal relationship with God. I'm no angel or saint, I have made a lot of mistakes and have chosen to do some things despite the fact that i know they're extremely evil, but at the end of the day, when im broken and wounded, when my knees are already raw after God wounds me, I know i have to go back to Him. so im really looking forward to that vacation. well, i guess i better wrap up.


have a meaningful lent you guys!

if i turned the other way and took the other path, is there a way of knowing where the other path leads and what it has in store for me? and if there is a way of knowing that, is there a way of turning back?


what if there is an undo button in life, or what if life is like the choose your own adventure book, that if you dont like the ending or the chain of events you can just go back to the start page. just what if?

i have to admit i was quite o.a. the last time i posted an entry.


well, i got a couple of comments, ym messages and text messages asking how i am. for my concerned friends thanks so much. to make light of the situation and to actually tell you why i over reacted last saturday, well it could've been the happiest moment of my life to date had i not been asleep. i know you're getting confused. well, let's start from the very beginning. babe and i went out last saturday since my shift ends at 4pm and its my last day for the week and he, on the other hand am on off. we met at g4 since i told him not to pick me up anymore. we went around and then had dinner at pancake house, also bought ourselves new pairs of eyeglasses. he has astigmatism (sorry dunno how to spell that) while my eyesight has gone from bad to worse (used to be 450 now 500 on both eyes). then after that we went to watch the movie. that was roughly 9:50pm which is the last full show.


the movie is great i should say. will smith is really funny. however, i was so tired i couldn't help but sleep once in a while. after the movie, babe is telling me to rest already and he's going out again after he tucks me to bed. he said he'll go to an internet cafe to play another on-line game he got hooked on. i was actually begging him not to leave since we only get to have 2 days together in a week and i wanted my huggable baby to be beside me when i fall asleep. well rather selfish though since i'd be sleeping already and he will wont have anything to do since our dvd player broke down and all his housemates left for a saturday night gimik. we ended up fighting. he said he was frustrated, when i asked him why. said he wanted the day to be a really special one and he asked me whether i heard what he said to me in the movie. when i got him to tell me what it was all about after admitting i didnt actually heard it since i must be asleep at that time, he told me he's already proposed. i was trying to put myself into his shoes and i imagine it could really be frustrating and depressing. we kissed and made up, but he refused to do a repeat performance of the proposal, said he will think of another style, something that would really shock me. well, just the thought actually warms my heart.

i just want to cry till i get tired of crying.