::sad

it's going to be 2 entries in one day. but i don't care! i'm sad. i'm sad because i'm one of the wave one csa's (other one is chiqui) from our team that will be transferred. i love my team, again except for one person. i feel so sad that we will be transferred to a new team. i just hope that something good will come out of this.

i'm currently in the 20/f longue in the office. i'm waiting for babe. i just got back from our team lunch at podium. we had lunch at burgoo. the food was great but then after the revelation - i kinda lost my appetite. i will really miss team triton, most especially the original tritonians - audrey, chiqui, tristan and jan, and of course, our very own mother goose tl gae. but well that's life! you may feel that i'm overreacting but well i guess that it's only now that i've found a team that i really reallly love (again except for one!) amongst all call center that i've worked for. well we'll still see each other but we won't be able to go out together as often. i will miss our team lunch and simply the bonding that we get whenever we go on yosi break. hay! grabe lang 2 weeks na kong smoke-free, i was doing good in my resolution to finally quit smoking but when i heard that, i was so frustrated naka 7 sticks ata ako ng isang upuan.

after we had lunch, we went to health solutions - this time its just me, auds, chiqui and jan. funny pa kasi when we were about to go down to the basement to get the car, all of had to go down except for tristan and jaypee. funny thing is nung nasa elevator na kami, halos kaming lahat lang ung laman ng elevator then nagbaba-bye sila tris sa min, when suddenly may pumasok na babae, sabi ba naman ni tris "miss ba-bye na din.". tawa tuloy kami ng tawa. anyway back to my story. so the four of us went to health solutions coz auds and chiqui has to take their annual physical exam. after that we went to starbuck pearl dr. wala lang girl bonding ever. hay nasa-sad na naman ako. sobrang mami-miss ko talaga ung mga kumag na un!

well, ngayon medyo nagsink in na sa kin ung thought na come monday night team callisto na ko. =( sana lang talaga may magandang mangyari dito. anyways speaking of good things happening in the office, remember that bathala quizzed me, tl gae made a powerpoint presentation that she sent out to the whole program commending me. =) sobrang tuwa lang ako at daming nagcongratulate sa kin, meron pa ngang peeps from the lower waves. then isa pang masaya is that tl cy told us earlier kung sino ung highest ang sales conversion rate for the whole month of april and may ba o march and april basta im not sure basta alam ko for 2 mos. shempre ang hula ng lahat ay ang reyna ng sales ng triton kundi si auds. nung una pa nga ang sabi namin si tine singayan ung ka-wave mate namin na ka-training teammate ni babe na medyo minsan minsan ay nakaka-inisan ko pa din kasi medyo epal sya. pero in fairness malakas sya bumenta at ang advantage pa nya e mabagal sya mag call - hehehe alam mo naman ako eh humahabol ako kay auds pagdating sa acd. kung si auds ang reyna ng acd (pinakamabilis magcalls for our team) eh ako ang prinsesa, ako lagi ang contender. anyways, eh yun na nga sabi namin si tine o kaya si auds. eh nung time na un, ang nandun lang si reggie, si chiqui, si auds at ung 2 bago - sheila and jimbo. sabi ni tl cy nandun lang daw sa circle namin. sabi namin baka si chiqui. tapos sabi ni tl cy di daw si tine singayan kasi daw number 2 na lang daw sya may tumalo daw. aba akalain mo ako daw ung top 1! goodluck di ba eh angtamad tamad ko na magrebutt sa mga sales objections ng mga customers kaya medyo konti lang ang benta ko at ambilis ko pa magcalls! sabi ko nga baka may mali eh. pero sabi ni tl cy kasi daw consistent daw ako. wow!!! sana naman gawan ako ng powerpoint presentation ni tl cy. hehehehe arte eh noh?! di ba makuntento?! aba minsan lang ata un.

hay eto may share akong magandang email na sinend sa kin ng ate ni malou, si ate marife. analyze nga natin kung totoo sya sa kin.

GuaRaNTeeS:

You may not realize it, but it's 100% guaranteed that:

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
hmmmp....sino kaya un?

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in someway.
at sino na naman kaya tong mga to?

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
ay true eto for me....hehehe the thing is ako ung naghe-hate....kung sino man un? hehehe akin na lang!

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
ay true din eto. i remember nung nginitian ako ng hr mngr ng p.s. dati nung time na sa navitaire na ko nagwo-work. at sobrang bad hair day ako. it soooo made my day, sobrang genuine kasi ng smile nya eh.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
ahhh eto si babe na to....hehehe as if meron pa daw iba eh noh?! ambisyosa!

6. You mean the world to someone.
uhmmm....babe ikaw din ba to? hehehe sana naman.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
eto di ko alam kung totoo to. pero kung sakali man, at least may silbi ang existence ko di buh?

8. You are special and unique.
i have to teach myself to believe this. serious!

9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
grabe lang talaga? sana makilala ko sya di buh?

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
what could be that biggest mistake? i wonder?

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
siguro....i have to admit me pagka-loner ako. sometimes i'd just mull in the corner and hope the whole world would stop and commiserate.

12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
yup! i believe in this....remember my debut, i never believed it would be possible that i'd ever be able to have a party imagine i had it at sa hotel pa!

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
this one i will also have to teach myself to do...

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know
likewise...have to teach myself this. need to learn how to tell people that i appreciate them, especially my parents.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
well....i agree on this one.

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till the next downtime! dito na baby ko eh! =)

::lonesome

on sunday our shift will be from 9pm-6am. and that would be the last day that we would be as a team. well in essence because two people from the first wave (that means it could be me, chiqui, jan, auds or tristan) will be transferred to another team. =( huhuhuhu!!! bakeeeet??? para daw balanse ung stats ng mga team, kami lang daw kasi ung laging performer kasi pinakamadami daw ang wave 1 sa team namin. which i refuse to accept. meron ngang team na puro wave one eh, pero performer lang talaga ung team namin.

we will have a post shift lunch later. nalulungkot ako. kung ako man ung isa sa malilipat o hindi malulungkot pa din ako. ngayon pa nga lang nasa-sad na ko eh. sobrang love ko team ko except for one!

hay eto na lang para gumanda ang araw ko. tingnan nyo na lang kung gano ka-gwapo at ka-yummy si orlando bloom a.k.a. papa legolas.

::confused

i just said that i won't apply for the new call center, but yesterday morning after having breakfast with chiqui, auds, jan and reggie, i kinda have to re-think my thoughts. imagine, they are not yet operational, they'd be starting on august and we'll be pioneer for the whole company. we're not only talking about the number one call center in the philippines, we're talking about the number call center in the world, and the biggest at that. and if you compare the salary here a team leader gets 25k, but there it would be 60k. o di ba good luck.

yen and i are going there on monday. wala lang try lang naman eh. if i get it then i'm meant for it.

for other stuffs, i went half day today because my knee cap is aching. my dad even put omega pain killer on it. touched ako. he woke up early to heat water for me, for bathing. i decided to go to work coz i don't have anything to do at home. i'll just be bored at least here i'm productive. hehehe as if!

i still haven't heard from my high school friends di ko tuloy alam kung matutuloy lakad namin next week. hay sana lang matuloy, i really miss those girls. and i'm excited coz dewleeh and i are in good terms again. well we kinda had a rift almost a year ago and we didn't speak with each other after that. that was august of last year. she didn't greet me on my birthday and likewise. but just last week i got a text message from her. she was asking me to meet up with rhia, coz rhia needs someone to talk to right now, she won't be able to attend to her since she is cramming for her nursing board exams on june 1. then we had quite a number of civil text exchanges. then i asked her if she wants to set up a get together after her and ayen's board exam. she actually wanted to do it next week after her exam coz ayen's board will still be in august. then it kinda went back to the good ol' days. we just had an exchange of sleezy messages and funny ones. i had to admit i miss that girl. well at least we no longer have to talk about what happened and at least she's not like harbie!

wow babe just dropped by my workstation and i showed my blogsite to him, hmmm....he was impressed.

waaaahhhh!!!! just got a call from solaris' big boss - chris winters, he quizzed me on everything as in everything!!! waaaahhhhh!!!! takot talaga ko! buti na lang bago matapos dumating si tl gae and she barged with my call. modesty aside nasagot ko lahat ng tanong nya ng maayos kahit na sobrang kinakabahan ako. and before we actually end the conversation he told me that i did great, was excellent and he asked me if i'm a team leader or just a csa. tl gae is very happy and wants to interview me later about it. and mind you mr winters recorded the call for training purposes. waaaahhhh!!! natakot ako pero sobrang proud ako na maayos ang mga sagot ko noh! waaaaahhhhh!!! grabe!!!

::still lazy

hay nakakatamad pa ding pumasok! malamig pa din at masarap magbabad sa kama. haaaay ayoko nga dapat ulit pumasok eh. kaya lang naalala ko gusto ko pala magblog. wow nakakatulong pala to! hehehe actually ang mas nakapagpabangon sa kin eh nung naisip ko ung mga bills ko like my credit card bill na dumating na pala, at ung phone bill ko na dapat ko na palang bayaran sa june 3.

nalulumbay naman ako. lahat na sila chiqui, auds, tristan ay balak na talagang lumipat sa convergees (ngeks tama ba spelling ko?) waaaah maloloka ko pag naiwan ako sa team namin at si creen na lang ang maiiwang babae dito. si january gusto na ding umalis. waaaaaahhhh!!!

huhuhuhu!!!!

nadedemonyo na ko ah! naku lang pero hindi ayokong lumipat! kailangang matapos ko ang kontrata ko dito at naku lang po noh pang-ilang work ko na to noh! ayoko! hindi! tsaka promise ko sa sarili ko di na ko talaga aalis dito unless lilipad na ko sa ibang bansa. meron akong nabalitaang call center eh sa singapore, kaya lang naman good luck di buh? SARS! hay reminds me update ko nga ung things to do, kailangan ko palang ayusin ung resume ko at bibigay ko nga pala kay yen. baka sakaling palarin ako at mapadpad ako ng guam di buh?!

hay kelan kaya kami matutuloy ng mga hmid friends ko sa aming summer adventure. ampucha naman umuulan na eh di pa din kami matutuloy. hay good luck talaga. sige na nga hopeless na tong mga sinusulat ko eh.

teka lang just wanna show you how pretty sadako is, grabe mas nagagandahan pa ko sa kanya kesa dun sa girl sa meteor garden. look ampretty talaga ni sadako.



ay eto pala meron pala kong nakitang nice na pic ni sadako. pero hello di to gusto ko eh, kasi hello gusto ko ung muka syang kawawa, pero sige na nga noh! hoy ha hindi ko obits ha! grabe lang hinde!!! o sa mga lalakitong nagpupunta sa site ko enjoyin nyo ang picture.



hay naku noh next project ko nga ang bumili ng tv at vcd player para sa kwarto ko eh, kailangan kong mapanood ung ring 1&2 tsaka titingin nga ko ng book nun. yacks natibo ba kay sadako! hehehe nakaka intriga lang talaga ung story tsaka nakaka-awa si sadako. hay naku un lang noh, sana next time makahanap ako ng mas maayos na picture nya, kamuka kasi nya dyan ung gf ng supervisor ni babe. sige babush!!!

::lazy

it's so darn cold! ilang araw ng ulan ng ulan at ilang araw din akong off kaya ayan, ngayon lang ako naka blog. at kung sisikapin ko namang mag blog entry sa bahay namin eh goodluck at mas makupad pa kay pong pagong ang aking pc noh!

hay naku ang aking mga friendships seeking for greener pastures. =( ayoko na lumipat ng call center mga tsong!!! gusto ko pag umalis ako dito punta na ko out of the philippines!!!! waaaaahhhhh alis lahat ng mga good friends ko, well actually sa team lang namin. they were telling me to go for it, some kinda trying to change my mind. tse yoko! gusto ko man eh, naku ayoko na po. kahapon medyo na iisip isip ko pang mag jump ship. hehehehe kaso when i thought about it eh lola yoko na noh! tamang tama kakakausap ko pa lang kay yen sabi nya ung agency nila dencio (dennis yan, dencio lang gusto ko tawag - bf ni yen) marami daw opening ang mga hotels sa guam. and she asked me for a resume. hmmm... makagawa nga bukas at maibigay kay yen, tutal magbibigay din ata si auds ng resume kay yen. =)

hay ba't ganto di ko ma update ang template ng blog ko. pucha mukang uulitin ko lahat to ah. waaaah!!! maloloka ko pag nagkataon!!!

hay buti na lang hindi!!! =) at in fairness madunong na kong maglagay ng color sa mga font at marunong na din akong maglagay ng images! waaaah im so proud of mahself!!!

my shift is nearly finished. i'll just take my last 15 minute break and then 15 more mins then log out na kame! im so excited to go home. btw, kwento muna, medyo kailan kong irecord etech eh. last monday off ko at off din ng baby ko. pumunta kami sa robinsons place grabe sobrang ulan, actually may bagyo! then we watched the ring-0. singit lang ha - kawawa naman si sadako(?_?). then after that we went around, i was able to buy a casette tape of hoku for only P20. mura di ba?! tapos naggrocery kami ni babe para sa daddy, i just had it charged on my card. initially di ko dapat mamimili ng madami eh since nakokonsensya ko dahil nga pinamili ko si mommy, di sige go na din. pucha naka P1,800+ akesh! so madami sha di ba, no choice kailangang magtaxi. ampucha more than 30 mins ata kaming nagintay for the cab at kupal pa ung mamang driver na nakuha namin. sobrang bobski nya (parang si creen! =P) tapos
3 beses kaming nagpalit ng route! can u believe that?! at naka P280 kami for the cab. pero nakaka-awa din naman ung mamam kasi napasok ng tubig ung cab nya. although di naman sobra konti lang pero sabi nga nya mahirap magpatuyo. sa house ko natulog si babe, actually i suggested it coz i know that if it continues to rain, eh lalangoy na sya papasok. true enough nung dumaan kami sa area nila eh sobrang baha na.

when we got to my place, i was too tired to cook. daddy and manuel were caught in a traffic jam themselves. babe and i just had champorado, ung mix lang, tinatamad nga kong magluto eh. then we slept right away. sobrang kapagod!!! o sige ung lang mauubos na ung break ko eh. babush!!! *mwah*

::excited

well, well, well if you look up my imood indicator, matatawa kayo dahil eto ay smiley na naka smile (shempers!) na may horn. hehehe bad noh?! excited ako kasi alis kame later ng mga teammates kow!!!! yahoohoo we're gonna watch a movie. grabe lang mula at ng maging team ang team triton eh ngayon lang talaga kami alis. sayang lang wala na sila alfia and watz. =( pero excited ako to the max, super loves ko mga teammates ko eh, except for one of course! hehehe! well, actually kaya nga may sungay ang smiley ko eh, kasi di namin sama si creen. hoy in fairness di ako nagsuggest nyan. ako kebs lang ke sumama sya ke hinde. eh tong si audrey eh ayaw daw isama si creen.

hay nakakapressure wala pa din akong sale. pucha nilagay pa nila sa program board ung mga name ng lahat ng csa na naka priority one. waaaah wala pang smiling face sa tabi na name ko!!!!

hmmm....gusto ko na mag mcdo!! libre kami ni tl eh! yeheeeeyyyyy!!!!

::vengeful

just yesterday, i was so inspired because of the dream i had but now i'm still feeling irritated and vengeful because of our pathetic teammate creen. first let me tell you about her. she is 24 years old, a graduate of dlsu main (although how that happened, i dont know), i dont want to comment on the way she looks but coz it would sound that i am maligning her. and it's also mind-boggling on how she managed to pass the recruitment process of our company, considering the fact that she doesn't have the accent, she's totally dumb (i mean it folks - she doesnt even know how to use microsoft word!)!! she is a laughingstock of the whole program! she has a lot of bubus and most of her callers hung up on her because she doesn't have an american accent. i wonder what kind of family members she have, if her intelligence is of any indication, i guess i don't want to know!!!

so this is what happened, remember we are an inbound sales program? well, yesterday a customer called. it was on the latter part of our shift. and since we're on the last shift, we're the only ones left in the office for our program. the cust said that he's gonna sign up already coz he already has his credit card with him. i asked if he remembers the name of the agent he spoke with earlier. in the first place if i badly want to "steal" that sale i could've went ahead and offered to help him out. but then again, i took down the customer's name and phone number and asked the whole team if they were able to talk to that customer. apparently she was the agent who spoke with the customer. so i told her i'm gonna transfer the call to her. but then she is in a call and she just asked me to tell the customer that she will call him as soon as she finished her call. so i relayed that to the customer. apparently the customer said that they're gonna sleep already since that's already 9pm (eastern standard time), and that he cant understand her. so i went ahead and sign up the customer. all of a sudden she started throwing tantrums and saying that "sinulot ko daw yung sale nya!". so right then and there while im in the middle of the call i told the customer that i'll be transferring the call to her. this is what exactly the customer said "i don't mean to make anyone angry about this, but i can't understand her." i told him i'm gonna transfer him anyway. then creen said she's still talking to someone and akin na lang daw, but with a very stern face. i actually don't want to tell her what the customer said coz i'm still considering her feelings. but she just completely pushed me out of my limits so i shouted with everyone listening, even the qms (quality monitor) for both our program and that of the other programs and all out teammates, i shouted "eh di ka nga daw maintindihan eh!" after the call, she was talking to tl gae saying that the next time she gets a caller looking for a certain agent, she will no longer look for that agent and steal the sale, anyway everyone's doing it to her. she said that before it was also done to her and she was very upset about it and now she is aggravated coz it was her teammate who stole the sale!!! tangina di ba, di ko naman ikakayaman yung isang sale nya na un!!!

tl gae is calming me down and gesticulating that i should not talk back but i really can't help it. i did not do anything wrong and i will not tolerate her crappy talk. so i said i'm gonna give it back to her. i did pull up the account again and note there that the sale was completed by: elazaro for CREEN CUI!!! then i erased the tick mark before my name on the white board, and put it before her name. after that tl gae asked us to both press the "coaching" button on our respective call masters. then she talked to us. this is exactly what tl gae said: "Creen, I don't mean to take sides here, pero matagal ko ng csa si erlyn at di nya ugaling magnakaw ng sale." aside from that tl gae told her that now that the whole program is in trouble (client is thinking of pulling out), it's not right to view things that way. in fact she should've been happy that her sale still landed to her teammate, and that we should work as a team, so on and so forth. she apologized but i told her that i'm not sure if i'm going to accept it. but one thing's for sure, i won't be able to be as nice to her as before.

after that tl gae, went to my workstation and consoled me. i can't help it sobrang nanginginig ako sa galit. she said she understands me and that i don't have to worry coz i didn't do anything wrong. i actually don't want to cry coz it might appear to creen that i'm doing that so that my teammates would feel for me. but i just really cant help it!

i'm very touched coz most of my teammates consoled me. tristan even said that he'll stop being nice to creen. i don't want us to gang up on her. and earlier she did email me again to apologize. i replied saying that i've already forgiven her it's just that i wont be as comfortable interacting with her anymore. well, i appreaciate the fact that she apologized but it's still fresh and for someone as begrudging as i am, it's a miracle that i was able to let go of the incident right away. honestly wala na sa kin un pero di ko na talaga kayang maging nice sa kanya. although naaawa din coz most of my teammates decided to switch to "kupal mode" towards her already.

this entry is sooo long that i started feeling vengeful. but now i've calmed down already. i'll just update the mood indicator later.

::baby

about a week ago, I had a really wonderful dream. Babe and I went to this place, I don’t know what it’s called and I don’t know where it is, all that I remember is that its foggy and there were a lot of stairs. There was someone who asked as to go up, can’t remember whether that person is a man or a woman but then all I knew is that we both followed that person and we climbed quite a plight of stairs and then finally the person said “Dali may papakita ko sa nyo.” When we were finally there, he handed us a baby girl. =) she was sooo cute and healthy. Basta ang naaalala ko lang kuhang-kuha nya ung shape ng nose ni babe. And believe it or not amputi ng baby!!! I carried her then the guy or well the angel (I believed he’s an angel) took the baby and have CooCoo carry her as well. Binigyan ko pa nga daw ng nickname yung baby eh, “Drixy.” Then kinuha na nya sa ‘min ung baby, tapos sabi nya saka na lang daw. Well anyway angcutie pie talaga nung baby. Sobra, siguro magmamana sa mommy ni babe kaya maputi. Malabong sa ming dalawa kumuha un eh.

I wanted to hold on to that vision, she is something so pure and wonderful. She’s enough reason for me to keep on dreaming, striving and living and believing that someday something really wonderful would come into my life and stay there for good.

::bored

been absent from work for 2 nights. this is my first time for our 1:30am shift. bagal ng oras grabe! oh well, i had my annual physical exam yesterday afternoon at the health solutions - back of megamall. darn it i had to go back to for the stool sample. can't they just do without it? whew! waste of time!

after my physical exam i went to babe's place. we just had dinner at chowking. i had braised beef while he had halo-halo (diet daw kasi sya!) hehehe goodluck di buh?! anyway di na ko nag-object dahil gusto ko ding kumain ng halo-halo. then we went to a pc rentals. babe and his nieces and nephews played counter-strike. hmmmp! naalala ko tuloy ang people support days ko. *dreamy eyes*. hehehe i miss my guy pals there! sila pao, si patrick, pat, timmy, mark, franz and ian. hehehe karamihan kasi dun guys. well come to think of it di naman, pero kasi parang un ang counter part ng matrix acct sa p.s. eh. so mostly talaga mga guyz. nagtataka nga ako pano ko na-hire eh??? well anyway, so much for reminiscing! after going to the pc rentals. babe and i went home. we left the kids there. we napped for a while at his room. nap lang as in! then, i left around 10:30pm. grabe bilis nga eh, mga 11pm dito na ko office. hay grabe sobrang walang magawa.

anyways, got a palmistry reading over the net. hehehe well better believe it. here's what it says:

WRIST LINES
Your Wrist Lines predict how many satisfying years you have ahead
of you. The more wrist lines you have the better. You have three
wrist lines, so there's no shortage of happiness coming your way.
Celebrate by doing what you do best. Go find a party to be the life
of. And make sure your happiness continues on the job, or consider a new career.

HEAD AND LIFE LINES
The top line is your Head Line and determines intelligence and mental
strength. The bottom line is your Life Line and indicates passion.
Your head and life lines touch, and your head line curves down.
Your empathy and willingness to always listen are your calling cards.
As a result, you have a great gift for helping others and dispensing
advice. Your 'soft and fuzzy' personality can sometimes make you
appear eccentric. You have little interest in seeing new places
or chasing adventures. For you, relationships are the greatest adventure of all.

HEART LINE
The Heart Line determines your romantic success. Your heart line
curves up, and if your life had a theme song, it would be 'Hurts
So Bad.' Your sensitivity can often lead to envy and self-doubt.
You're constantly seeking approval and craving the spotlight, where you feel happy and accepted.
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cLick heRe to tRy it!


special messages:

babe: i hope you get to read this entry so you'll get to understand me better. =(

geri hoy bru! araw-araw kamo binabasa mo ang blog ko tapos di ka man lang mag-iwan ng bakas!!! sana man lang mag-iwan ka ng message o kaya mag-sign up ka sa gb di buh?!

-------okay enough of the special messages-------

hay for sure ilang beses kong i-e-edit tong entry na to. kasi naman eh walang magawa!!!! for some news, i already got a leaflet of the Coco Grove Beach!!! waaaah!!! sobrang ganda dun!!! dun nag-shoot sila juday at piolo for the "Till there was you". dun kami punta ni babe for our anniv!!! sobrang excited na ko promise!!! i'll just wait for him to start training in inspiron and then.... file na kami agad ng sil (service incentive leave). 3 days and 2 nights eto!!! excited na ko promise merong cottage dun na tree house - at take note - aircon ha at malaki!!! sana lang kayanin kaming dalawa ng asawa ko di ba?!

grabe obvious bang bored ako?? dami ko nang nasulat eh. hmmm....reminds me i need to wake up babe in a few minutes. sino kaya ang kasama kong maglunch??? kasi naman nauna na tong sila audrey eh! hmmp! wala tuloy akong kasama! di bale mahal naman sa whistlestop eh, di na afford ng budget ko. mcdonalds na lang ako kakain later. gusto ko ng pancakes!!! (^_^) tsaka hushbrowns, hmmm.....ano pa ba??? pakshet!! may bumati nga pala sa kin kanina na kapitbahay namin, ampucha antaba ko daw ngayon!!!! waaaaaahhhhhh!!!! this cant be happening!!!! (;_;) huhuhu ayokoooo tumabaaaa!!!! sige na nga pancakes na lang. huhuhu kailangan ko na magpapayat....


waaaaahhh gusto ko gumanda!!!!

...torn

i'm torn between loving and hating my own family just as i'm torn between loving and hating myself.

....unforgiving

here at a cybercafe near ust with babe. we had a fight last night well guess who's to blame again. well who else but the ever insecure meeeh! i didn't go to the work. have soooo many things in mind. duh!

'gotta love myself. 'need to forgive and forget! not babe but other people in my past who made me feel and actually believe that i will never be good enough.

new maxim: have to remember and sing christina aguilera's song Beautiful to myself whenever i feel not good enough for everything again!

bEauTifUL

Don't look at me

Everyday is so wonderful
Then suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, i get insecure
From all the fame, i'm so ashamed

But I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down,
Oh no, so don't you bring me down today

To all my friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The pieces gone, left the puzzle undone
Is that the way it is

CauseÂ’ you are beautiful no matter what they say
Words canÂ’t bring you down
CauseÂ’ you are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words canÂ’t bring you down
Oh no, so don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do
No matter what we say
WeÂ’re the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes

And everywhere we go
The sun will always shine
But tomorrow will find a way
And tomorrow we might awake
on the other side

CauseÂ’ we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Oh no, so don't you bring me down today

Oh yeah don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

my shift is nearly over. i'm about to go home in 15 minutes. gee thanks! it's going to be a looooong week for me, well actually for our team. they changed our sched, we were put on a new shift. damn! hate it! they call it a transition...and man believe me it ain't nice!!! our shift will be from 1:30am-10:30am. and our off should be monday. but then again we still have work tonight from 9pm-7am(sunday) so that means that we will get home monday morning and then we will need to go to work again by tuesday 1:30am. good luck di ba!!! halos di rin kami nag off! i just want to slap our sched analyst. hmmmppp *slap* slap*slap* and *slap some more!*

'been putting a lot of new things in my blog. haaay sana lang maayos ko di bah! stressed out na ko. wanna have a looong sleeep. can't think of anything else to say. at least anything else positve.

i went to sir sonny's wake early this morning. hinatid ako ni auds. sobrang thankful ko nga kasi anlayo pala nun. when i got there, walang tao, tulog pa ung 2 anak na lalaki ni sir sonny and a really old woman who i presumed is sir sonny's mom or perhaps an elderly relative. i even had to ask the help of the maintenance guy to wake them up kasi nakasara ung door eh. i asked for benjo. medyo nakakahiya nga kasi sobrang nagising ko sila. i just told him that i'm mely's niece and i handed the envelope that has the love offering from ninang. then i mustered all my guts to look at sir sonny as i really never look into coffins. i was so shocked when i saw him, he indeed suffered so much. he lost a lot of weight and he seemed to have grown 10 years older in one year. ninang was right when she said it was time to let go of him. he did suffer so much that it was time to give up the fight.

to sir sonny wherever you are, may you rest in peace and may the Good Lord comfort all those people whose lives will be less because of your passing away. you are a good man and i believe that you were able to touch a lot of lives, just as you touched my life when you were still here with us.

ninang called me yesterday afternoon, she asked me if i was able to go to makati med and tell sir sonny that she asked me to drop by. i told her i wasnt coz i was actually waiting for my pay to be credited on our acct as i dont have any more money. i just wanted to buy him something may be fruits or sweets. but then ninang said i dont have to go anymore as he passed away already in the morning of the 15th. ninang called nga daw and asked benjo (one of sir sonny's son) to put the phone beside sir sonny's ears, afterwards benjo said that they saw him shed some tears and then roughly 30 minutes after ninang called, he passed away already. i felt so shocked and sorry as well. he was so alive and so funny the last time i saw him, which was last year. and then quite a few months ago i got news from ninang that he was ill with cancer. i emailed ninang right away to let her know that im sorry and that i really intended to go there its just that im waiting for my pay.

tomorrow morning im going to the chapel where they are holding the wake. im going to bring the money ninang sent for them. and partly becoz i just wanted to say goodbye to a very good man, who was a mentor to me during many of my speeches in toastmasters. i just never thought that he would be gone so soon. death is really inevitable. in line with sir sonny's passing i would like to share with you a poem that julie and i liked so much.

~~~IMMORTAL~~~

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond that glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning rush,
I am the swift uplifting hush,
Of quiet birds in circling flights,
I am the star shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there I did not die.

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actually later pa dapat ako magba-blog eh kaso gusto ko lang share....i went to the office early to meet up with auds at starbucks and then we saw ian veneracion and khristopher peralta and the best thing of all is that they sat on the table next to us! grabe lang sobrang kinikilig ako!!! =)

got a mail from geri, one of my hmid barkada. =( tampuput sha kasi sabi ko dun sa isang entry ko na wala na kong old friends na nakaka-usap. well in fact lagi nga pala kaming "in touch" ng mga hmid friendships ko becoz of our yahoo grp. sorry geri, i was actually pertaining to my highschool friends - my psfriends barkada and some people out there. ^peace^ geri. =(

i'm kinda sad coz babe had just passed his loi (letter of intent) to his supervisor. he wanted to transfer to another unit - actually a sub-program of his current program. the sad thing is that that program is stationed in cc2, our makati office, the one in pbcom. =( that means that i wont get to see him everyday. well it will come sooner or later, just have to take it perhaps. well as if i have a choice!!!

ninang just gave me a call yesterday afternoon, just in time when i woke up before going to work. she's asking me for a favor. she wants me to go to makati med hospital to visit sir sonny. he's one of our close friends in toastmasters. he's a really nice person. he represents our club in humor contests most of the time. he's really an achiever, he was from a poor family, as in literally poor. during his college days in f.e.u., he said he spend most of the time at the library as he doesn't have money to join his classmates and his snack is banana cue all the time with matching gulaman for drinks. he's very intelligent, he became a certified public accountant and later on he became the president of a top construction firm. and now sad to say, he is terminally ill with cancer of the intestines. ninang said she called him up but he can't speak anymore. later after my shift i'd drop by at the hospital to pay him a visit. i just hope i don't become too emotional when i see him, he's really a good man.

i'm taking my one hour break right now. i really don't have much to say right now. i'll just surf around to check where we (hmidbabes) would go for our overnight swimming party on the 31st. and then i'll check geri's blog. hehehe watch out geri. =P

till the next downtime. ;>

this is such a long day well actually a long night for me. good luck for my sales conversion rate i already have 22 calls and just one sale. whew!! bakit ba naman kasi i-level 1 kami eh. sana lang di ba lahat ng tao ay level 1. anyway, i did receive an email from julie ann it was actually forlorn. it was about something that was written by barry - her classmate in u.p., where she took up Organizational Communications. i won't tell you what it's all about since that would pre-empt the email that im going to post here later on. but i should say that i have those emotions deep within me as well. it's very sad but very true. =< julie ann's email goes this way:

"Then it occurred to me how strange it can be to sometimes feel like an alien right inside your home, right within the circle you call your family. You look at your father from a distance and you realize how much of a failure he has been, at least by your standards. You mutely question his decisions, or the lack of it. Then you vow never to be like him, or marry
someone like him.

You look at your mom and you pity her, not so much because of what she has become, but so much because of what she has not become. You hate the way she treats you, but you continue to love her in the hope that your love will later on make you become less like her.

You look at your siblings , you hate some, you love some. You want to spare them from what you have gone through while growing up but you realize that you can only do so much. That in due time they will have a mind of their own. That sometimes the best way to love them is to not care for them.

You look at each member of your family and for a moment you realize how you have distanced yourself from them. Not by accident, but by decision.

You feel that they will never understand you no matter how you try to simplify things. That they will never understand why you bought that little piece of lingerie, instead of paying the water bill. Why you chose to take up Orcom,while everyone else is becoming a doctor, or a nurse. Why you decided to let go of your virginity soon enough. Or why you prefer not to marry, or not have kids. Or live in sin.

They will never understand you when you talk about the riddles of Egyptian civilization. Or the innuendoes hiding underneath sugarcoated lines of an overrated novel. Or when you start making fun of death like its one simple, lucrative business. Or when you choose not to hear Mass on Sundays.

A family can be the greatest treasure on earth; it can also be the greatest disappointment. Sometimes by fate, sometimes by volition."

dear people,

barry just sent me this message. it wounded me deeply because though he was speaking of his own life, it was as though i was the one who wrote those very words. Everthing in it (except for the virginity thing) hit hard. i feel my cunningly contrived veil of normalcy & wellness shatter, and the dark truths of my heart exposed.

i should be thankful to have a beautiful family. and i am. i love them very much. but i just can't seem to shake off this disappointment, my anger, this discontent.

so undeservedly blessed, i have no right to be unhappy.

i dont know why im telling you these. But please pray that i see through my struggle to have a more forgiving heart.

i actually emailed her back telling her that i feel the same way for most of my lifetime actually. there were times when i admittedly wished that i was born someone else, that i was born in another family. but then i can't change things and i just tell myself that perhaps God has a reason for putting me in this family. that perhaps i would be less if it were any different. but i strongly feel that way, in fact i haven't stopped feeling that way. =( i know i shouldn't feel that way but most of the time i can't help it and i know i should stop wishing i was born under different circumstances, in a different family. but i sure don't like my children to think that way as well. i cannot say that perhaps this is just a phase knowing fully well that not all people get to feel that way.

i just hope that one day, i'll know why God decided to put me in such a situation.

just logged in, nawi-windang kami dito sa office dahil may bago na namang promotion. tumawag pa nga ko kay ronald eh para lang magconfirm eh naku magulo pa din! anyway, too much about work.

malou just dropped me a line. puro daw babe, hmmm....di naman ah?! ngaks kasasabi ko lang na wala na kong old friends, meron pala, the ever thoughtful malou! well i seldom get to touch base with her. kasi nga nasa states sya for a year coz she is studying there for a year. when she gets back here by june i'll get to see her more often. sana lang di ba. though i know that she'll be busy with school again. she'll be a sophy in law school. =)

another week starts today. whew! and my offs are split off. i had my first off for the week last night and the next one would be on thursday night. well anyway, for the last week of the month i did request for specific days off that way we (hmid friends) can push through with the swimming outing that we are planning. excited na ko, haven't been really out with those girls for long time and besides this would actually be just the second time that we're gonna go swimming, the first time would be on my 19th birthday. it was fun though but looking back now, i did not have that much fun then, although most of my friends were there including malou and julie and someone i'd rather forget! hehehe fun naman sya may be i didn't have that much fun becoz i was the one who paid for the whole thing. => well not this time. sana lang makasama si cherry even if she's pregnant para mas masaya.

i'll write again later. can't think of anything to write baka sabihin na naman ni malou puro babe nakalagay dito eh. =) o ayan malou ha wala ng babe... i'll blog later on, after midnight.

it's 12 midnight - the witching hour....yet i'm here at the office waiting for a call! on a monday midnight. yup! life's a bummer!!! well' not really i'm kinda adjusted with the kind of lifestyle call center agents have. i actually like it that i go to work and go home when it's not a rush hour.

yesterday morning after getting off from work i hitched a ride with audrey, she dropped me off along c-5. i actually intended to drop by mom's place to greet her a happy birthday but then since i'm all too broke and that babe wasn't able to make it to work coz he's still complaining of high blood pressure, i just went to his place. aside from that, i intentionally went to their place to sleep there since it's a sunday today, it's definitely noisy at dad's place coz of the so-called church at the side of our house, which is technically our property!!! and if i go home to mom's place instead, i still won't be able to get a good sleep due to the fact that their inconsiderate neighbors are definitely loud-mouthed!!! so the best thing to do is to stay at babe's place. and true enough, i was able to get a good sleep.

when i woke up, that was around 5pm, he volunteered to drop me at the office. sweet ^_^ actually there is another sweet thing that he did, he cooked breakfast and since i'm dead tired to go downstairs and have a late breakfast with him, he just brought it upstairs for me. ^_^

so we left their house an hour later and then we went to hot shots where we met up with auds. we just had dinner there, i even saw 2 celebrities - zoren legaspi and kier legaspi! geez, they're really handsome in person! it's been 2 days now that i'm get to encounter male actors in resto. the other day we (auds and me) saw bobby andrews at tender bobs, where we had dinner before going to work. anyway, going back to what i was telling you, we just stayed there for quite sometime, auds even had to pay visit to the toilet, for more critical reasons. =) then after that we went to ibm to park auds car. going to the office, babe saw his high school barkada, anna lou. she's also from our company although she just joined the company a bit later than we did. perhaps early this year. she's actually babe's first love, hmmm....well if i'm not mistaken. and before i think she also has feelings for babe as well. but well bygones! we said hi to her and she just said that she already remembered me, that i was wearing glasses before. auds and i went ahead while babe stayed there to smoke with them. later on perhaps 10 mins before log in we (j.p., auds and i) were about to go down for one last cigarette break then i saw babe coming out of the clinic, said he had his blood pressure checked, the nurse on duty checked it for 3 times and the results are varying so she asked him to come back after 2 hours.

so all the time he was here. when we took our first break we went to whistlestop and i bought him vitamins - centrum. mark the date when i first used my credit card. i actually wanted to use it first to buy something for myself but heck! i owe him anyway. when we went to subic i bought chocolates and asked him to pay for it first using his credit card, well its not as costly as the vitamins but well he gave his phone to daddy so i bought the vitamins anyway, and that way he'd feel less burned out.

babe just left about half an hour ago. i was actually asking him to stay till i log out but i actually asked him to go home na din. i'll just text him later on to tell him if i'm going to drop by at his place later, i might or might not depends on my mood. but i'll definitely drop by mom's place to change and to greet her, i owe her one. may be i'll just treat her to breakfast or buy groceries for her.

::here's what the stars has to say about my day today:

When you are happy-go-lucky, you get in a good mood that blossoms, becomes contagious, and before you know it, everyone around you is in a good mood, too, erlyn. This is definitely a wonderful day in which you should keep things light and carefree. Take advantage of it. Feel free to make new friends, but make sure to nurture your old friendships, as well. Don't treat your old friends any less than you should just because you know that they will always be there for you.

~~as if i still get to see my old friends! as far as i'm concern the only friends i do have right now are my team mates and the jeffersons (except for vanessa and ge!) old friends??? what do you mean???

then i'll just decide if i wanna go ahead and meet up with baby. i guess i'll have to stop now coz i need to finish a powerpoint presentation something that has been assigned to me by my supervisor. i'll be off for tomorrow night so that means that i wont have an entry tomorrow night. till the next downtime. =)

hi there! i was off for 2 days that's why i do not have any entries for a couple of days. well anyway, i really don't have much to say just a couple of news but no nice thoughts as of the moment, that's if you call my thoughts nice at all, i myself see it sordid and mundane!!!

*news - i got a new webcam sent to me by tito tony ^_^ but the bad thing is i still can't use it coz my pc is very primitive!!! i think that's an understatement.

*other news - i watched Till There Was You already! it's a feel good movie! ^_^ hay ang sweet but what's sweeter is my baby who actually agreed to accompany me in watching the movie considering the fact that he doesn't really watch filipino movies, he finds them very predictable and mostly patterned to american movies, which is true. but not the movie that we just saw. haaaayyyy super dooper kakilig talaga!!! as in!!!

*more news - it's jOy's birthday today!!! =) joy is my college barkada specifically precom years. hope she gets to read my email to her at our yahoogroup. she just turned 22 today.

*some more news - rey has just left for israel. he's going to celebrate his birthday there together wiht his loveydudes. his birthday is on the 18th.

**baby updates - his blood pressure is high today. hope he gets well na. haaay i miss him already.

*even more news - happy mother's day to my mom!!!

i guess that's all for now. c",)

bummer 'ju know that we weren't able to go to the beach!!! so many delays and unnecessary stop overs!! it seems that we wasted 2 days just to hit the road! we just literally stayed in the van for 2 days. well we were able to go swimming but not in the beach but at the pool of the hotel where we stayed! bummer!!!

arte pa talaga ni vanessa! that bitch!!! i swear the next time we go somewhere di na sasama ung babaitang yun!!! as in! lahat na lang ata ng tao na bad trip sa kanya! yikes feeling nya sobrang ganda nya pwede ba noh! ampangit nya!!! buti nga sa kanya at napeklatan ang legs nya kaya di sya maka-swimming! i may sound like a bitch my self, but darn it she deserves it! even babe was soooo pissed off with her! she's a darn selfish bitch. even the very patient yen got pissed with her! well, ju think i had fun? well part of it i did. good thing rey was there and ron and his girlfriend who could very much commiserate with babe and me. hay naku sila din super bad trip dyan sa vanessa na yan!

oh well on the brighter side at least part of it babe had fun! they tried out the go kart!!! sarap tignan na super enjoy ang baby ko! then i was able to bond with maite, she's one of my best bud in team jefferson eh, of course my teammate jun and ron. syempre si "football-head" joey!, and of course the indian girl - haidee lynn =) actually lahat naman eh! except for that darn bitch vanessa, kaya pag nagplano kami ng layas ni haidee lynn di talaga pwedeng sumama ung maarteng un!!!

other news, hmmm...audrey's back from boracay! she bought me a native blue beads necklace. =) and they can't get over going to the beach, they are planning a puerto galera getaway! they are inviting me and coocoo, i'm cool about it but come to think of it, i kinda don't like to go. dunno but just don't feel like it. anyway, my college friends are going out swimming. sana matuloy di ba?!

sige ditech na lang ha! bukas na lang ulit! babuch!!!

a few more hours....and here i come subic!!! just finished with a darn irate caller who has a problem with his hearing or perhaps has a problem with his mental capacity! well anyway i'm sooo looking forward to going to subic.... beach na beach na kow!!! of course lalo pa't sasama si reydante at si yen lagat - my 2 best buddies from my training team. not to mention the fact that my baby will be with me... anyway, prepare to hear me rave about my trip later. but for now, let me just share with you a nice email that was sent out to me by my college friend and classmate of 2 years. read on.... anyway, i'll highlight the phrases that struck me the most and give a comment or two.

*~*~*~*A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE*~*~*~*

...one old love
she can imagine
going back to...
and one who reminds
her how far she has come...
~~~actually it doesn't exactly fit this phrase, i am just reminded of jhon pingol. when i think about someone who loves me so much, and take note, someone from my childhood and of course someone aside from babe, i automatically remember him. he even married someone who looks like me. well let's keep it at that, i promised it will only be a comment.


...enough money within her
control to move out and
rent a place of her own
even if she never wants
to or needs to...

...something perfect to wear if
the employer or date of her dreams
wants to see her in an hour...

...a youth she's content
to leave behind...

...a past juicy enough that
she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age...

...a set of screwdrivers, a
cordless drill, and a black
lace bra...

..one friend who always makes
her laugh... and one who lets
her cry...
~~~of course who else do you think i'd be reminded of this phrase?...well none other than my "ex"-bestfriend, harbie! that line really rings a bell coz that's exactly what she said on my debut party! but then she did not live up to that! she left me in the dust!!!

next please!!!

...a good piece of furniture
not previously owned by anyone
else in her family...

...eight matching plates, wine
glasses with stems, and a recipe
for a meal that will make her
guests feel honored..

...a feeling of control over
her destiny...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

...how to fall in love without
losing herself...
~~~i've yet to learn this.

...how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend
without ruining the friendship...

...when to try harder... and
when to walk away...

...that she can't change the
length of her calves, the width
of her hips, or the nature of her
parents...
~~~this one too!!! i have to learn to accept that there will always be someone better than me, but that doesn't make me less important and special.
...that her
childhood may not
have been perfect...but its
over...
~~~i have to learn to forgive all those people, actually relatives (most of them are dead now) who have morally afflicted me and made me think i will never be good enough.

...what she would and wouldn't
do for love or more...

...how to live alone... even if
she doesn't like it...
~~~i think i'd want to skip this one, no please i so darn hope this one is not included in my curriculum!

...whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't
take it personally...

...where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table...
or a charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...
~~~kulit! wala nga kong bestfriend eh!!! grrrrr!!!

...what she can and can't
accomplish in a day...
a month...and a year...
~~~i have to enjoy myself!!! and that's exactly what i'm gonna do later!!! =) till next downtime!
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good morning bloggy! just having my one hour break, after having my coaching with my team leader - TL Gae. it's actually a great session, well as it has always been. TL Gae really is meant for her position, she brings out the best in people. we just discussed my performance and of course we discussed my strengths and how i can further improve my performance, with that of course we do have to tackle my areas for improvement, which is relatively minimal now, as compared before. thanks to tl gae! and then, the team performance and other work related issues.

earlier this morning i actually went to mommy's place instead of going home to my dad's place coz i need to get something for the outing on saturday. i wasn't able to sleep at all, tita jean had an argument with their landlady. i don't want to discuss that coz it's really ridiculous! but the bottom line is, they are definitely, abominably unreasonable! i think i was already up by 2pm, so i texted babe to meet me in galleria as i need to buy shorts for the swimming. we ended up fighting again at the mall, well not at all fight but argue. but i guess he considers that a fight. good thing we were able to fix before the day ends. i have to admit its my fault. something very petty!

we ate dinner there and had coffee at starbucks, somewhere near the office. he went here and stayed here with me until my first break. we had one stick of cigarette before he finally went home. it was actually fun, that he's friends with my teammates already and in fact even the tls in my program knows him already. that's actually the set up i want, you know that i'd be friends with his friends and vice versa. but i think that is entirely impossible for me to be ever friends with the **** people! well so much for that, they do not deserve even a tiny bit of space in my blog.

new topic please!!!!

My brother's birthday will actually be next week! can you believe it??? time really flies aint it?! well he's turning 20 already. i'll just bring him somewhere may be treat him to lunch and perhaps buy him a new pair of shoes. =) anyway, i'd still be on leave on monday. yehey!!!! and speaking about my bro, i just got an email from one of my training teammates - bev. something about special children. manuel can sometimes be a pain in the neck but he is special in his own way. reminds me of an incident where in i was really touched. last week babe was at our place. daddy left for a meeting and all three of us were left at home, babe and i had a fight. we were getting into each others' nerves and we were raising our voices. babe being the big guy that he is, naturally, has a big voice. after he left manuel was so infuriated that he was telling daddy all about it and that he will not let babe inside the house again. and that he was so mad coz babe was shouting at me. well, i guess it's okay with him, if he is going to be the one shouting at me (yeah he does shout at me!), but it's definitely not okay with him if it would be babe. call that brother's love, for lack of a better term. =) well anyway, here's the article. read on....

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

And they call some of these people "retarded"...

A few years ago, at the Seattle Special Olympics, nine contestants, all
physically or mentally disabled, assembled at the starting line for the
100-yard dash. At the gun, they all started out, not exactly in a dash, but
with a relish to run the race to the finish and win. All, that is, except
one little boy who stumbled on the asphalt, tumbled over a couple of times,
and began to cry. The other eight heard the boy cry. They slowed down and
looked back. Then they all turned around and went back......every one of
them. One girl with Down's syndrome bent down and kissed him and said,
"This will make it better." Then all nine linked arms and walked together
to the finish line. Everyone in the stadium stood, and the cheering went on
for several minutes. People who were there are still telling the story.
Why? Because deep down we know this one thing:

What matters in this life is more than winning for ourselves. What matters
in this life is helping others win, even if it means slowing down and
changing our course.


"A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle"
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till here!

p.s. waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh miss ko na si audrey!!!!!!!!

lot's of people on avail right now, which is quite good becoz we can accomplish the tasks that we are assigned to do. well you know how i sometimes (well actually most of the time) procrastinate. well anyway, at least i was able to finish the reports. i finally got to take out one thing on my 'to do list'. anyway, earlier they were playing a really good song, which sounds really good to me. one of the csas have a sound blaster and she's taking in requests, huh! more of a dj. =) well anyway, whenever she plays this song i always get distracted. this is a new song sung by vanessa carlton, she's a foreign artist who looks like 'jolina'. =P well anyway, here goes the song.

~~~PRETTY BABY~~~

you light me up and then I fall for you
you lay me down and then I call for you
stumbling on reasons that are far and few
I'd let it all come down and then some for you

pretty baby don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
pretty baby why can't you see
you're the one that I belong to
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm
for you're the sun that breaks the storm
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound
as long as you keep comin' around, oh pretty baby

and I know things can't last forever
but there are lessons that you'll never learn
oh just the scent of you it makes me hurt
so how's it you that makes me better

[chorus]

why can't you hold me and never let go
when you touch me it is me that you own
pretty baby oh the place that you hold in my heart
would you break it apart again... oh pretty baby
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well who else do you think i'd dedicate this song to? that seems to be a rhetorical question.

i'm actually bothered by the fact that lately all i do is sleep and work. i don't seem to know the new songs anymore as well as the news, same with the tv commercials and shows. not with the movies though coz babe and i have been waiting for several movies now, like X-men and the Matrix 2, well actually he's the one waiting for that, funny thing is that i'm waiting for that local movie of juday - "Till there was You", don't you dare raise your eyebrows! or i'll knock you off! not that i am a juday fanatic, it's just that i think the movie is a good one. I've actually asked people in the office if they would like to watch the movie. originally it was only TL Lianne and me who are going to watch the movie, but then! when my teammates heard about it, chiqui said she'd join, then alfia too, then TL Gae as well, until tuluyan ng dumami ang mga kampon ni juday! =P i actually asked babe to watch it with me originally, but then again, baka mag-away lang kami in the first place he doesn't like watching those kind of movies and then gusto ko naman pagna nood ako nun pag kinilig ako di ako pagtatawanan ng kasama ko. at least pag mga ka-girlfrenans ang kasama ko oks lang na kiligin at maging mushy! no offense babe! loveyah!

it's chiqui's birthday today!!!! she's one of my nicest teammate! Happy birthday chiqui!!! =)

anyway, to go back to what i was saying earlier, i'm just quite taken aback by the fact that i'm so left behind when it comes to new songs and tv shows and commercials. yesterday morning when i got home, i asked daddy to buy newspapers, but no! i was not able to read it anyway! pathetic!

just hope saturday morning comes! subic is just 2 days away!!!! yahoohoo!!! till then i will have to finish 2 more reports and to buy things for the trip. =) byers!